April 9th marked the 2 year anniversary of my divorce. Which next to the birth of my kids was the greatest thing to ever happen to me. In all the process of recognizing being in a dysfunctional relationship and the steps it took to get out were hard steps to take. Counseling, Sobriety and medication all helped but in the end watching my daughter play with dolls where the mommy and daddy doll would fight, then the baby doll would cry for the daddy doll not to leave was the final step. I didnt want my children to use my ex-wife and I’s relationship as the standard to one day achieve.

While I was married my world was small, miserable and I fantasized about death everyday. Counseling helped me realize how much larger the world was and how much better of a father I could be by just setting the same example my mother set for me when I was 3.

I realized I had no choice.

Im not going to lie leaving was the hardest thing I had ever done(and Ive watched my friends die in combat) but here I am 2 years fully out of my marriage and I oddly enough have a better relationship with my ex then I ever had with her while we were married. I have a loving/supporting girlfriend who shows me what its like to feel loved and I get to take my kids on adventure’s as myself not as some caged lion.

Since my divorce Ive been climbing one hell of a mountain. Although I am not on top of that bitch yet and I admit I still have obstacles ahead.(Im in Fucking Afghanistan Currently for goodness sake) I can honestly say the view from where I am now is a helluva lot better than where I was.

The World is huge plan on conquering it not be crushed by it.

PS Thank you mother I love you.