SEX and COMBAT are both physical acts of love.

Yeah, I said it. A physical act of love. In the warrior culture to say I never had the honor of serving with him in combat is saying I never got the opportunity to physically express my love for my brother. For in combat you truly see that affirmation of love in the willingness to give yourself for your brothers because “Greater love has no one than this than to lay down one’s life for his friends” (JOHN 15:13)

The best lovers and warriors are truly selfless and a bit crazy. A nymphomaniac and a bloodthirsty veteran are one in the same because sex\combat becomes so desensitized that they need some next-level craziness to get off and there is no such thing as enough. For the rush you receive before a shot is fired is far more exhilarating then release. It’s the unknowingness of whether or not it will go down and once it starts you can get lost in the moment and it can become mechanical.(to me sliding off panty’s is like watching someone emplace an “IED” Improvised Explosive Device) Then finally after its all said and done no one likes the cleanup either mess.

The battlefield or the cause is irrelevant to the warrior but the love is real. (In all my years of service. I never served one day for the US government. I protected the constitution, the citizens of the United States and my brothers in arms but sadly I feel as though all 3 were exploited by the former.) Cowardliness in battle is as despicable as adultery because at its core you are being selfish. You care more for your own selfish desires (i.e your life or release) than that of your team/mate and when one is found out it is the betrayal and the lies that hurt more than anything else because all the love and care that was put forth was taken for granted and spat upon. Then from that moment on your brotherhood or relationship will be seen as a failed fraud from an outsider’s perspective and to the warrior, a stain on their honor is the greatest insult of all.

Ahhh but when the sex is good or the mission successful. You’re just a couple of sweaty people breathing heavy and sharing a smoke. Then you try to explain your experience’s with your friends who just don’t know but have only fantasized or played Video games it’s like talking to a virgin about sex.

To my RECON brothers continue to maintain the tremendous reputation of those who went before you and continue to fuck the enemy in a way I am only allowed to remember!!!!

In the end SEX without love is just fucking and COMBAT without love is just violence.

David “Beaux” Engelbert