A friend of mine who sits on the left side of the aisle politically speaking (it is good to have friends with different political views and opinions because you have to evaluate your stance and potentially grow.) told me she shared some of my work with a kindred soul who was mortified by some of the things that she read.- “continue to fuck the enemy in a way I am only allowed to remember!!!!” I was asked “does that mean you wish you could still kill people?” The problem I feel is a miss communication between myself and the reader.

The true nature of my articles (as a body of work) is i am trying to express my view’s and experience’s to people so I can be understood and seen as human. In turn that help’s make me feel “normal”. The last thing I would want to do is instill hate or glorify the killing of innocence. To me the “enemy” are the people who wish to do harm to my friends, family and people anywhere who cant defend themselves. I only lose sleep on the enemy I didnt pull the trigger on due to limitations imposed by my superiors and of course myself. (Knowing someone is dirty but is not doing something wrong at that time.) For professional warriors it is not as easy to take a life as one may think. For a coward kills out of fear a professional kills out of code. It is never the Kung Fu master who kills someone in the street it is the skinny guy with the 38. special in his pocket who will hide behind his weapon.

My friend said “people know combat is a unique life changing experience that “normal” people will never see and want to know what its like.” My response “It is a a life altering event that there is no return from. adrenaline aside the scars and your perception of reality are forever skewed.” When you live at the speed of light that carries over into every other spectrum of life. The only people I can truly relate to are my brothers in arms because they have all the same addictions and social dysfunctions as myself.

When I spoke of the nymphomaniac and the blood thirsty war veteran. I was not glorifying either. “I cannot trust a man to control others who cannot control himself.”-Robert E. Lee. Those people are sick and without balance in their life. They are consumed with their perspective addictions and will ultimately destroy themselves.

To me the truest enemy to myself and brothers are the politicians who are so quick to send us to war. (“It is forbidden to kill; therefore all murderers are punished unless they kill in large numbers and to the sound of trumpets.-Voltaire”.) War has taken from me more than it could ever give but what it has given in brotherhood can not be measured. So when I say “To my RECON brothers continue to maintain the tremedous reputation of those who went before you and continue to fuck the enemy in a way I am only allowed to remember!!!!” What I am trying to do is encourage my brothers as well tell them I miss living with them at the speed of light. My true feelings about war are best summed up by Robert E. Lee when he said ” It is well that war is so terrible – otherwise we would grow too fond of it.”

Beaux