“Its funny while I was in the Marines I dreamed of getting out so I could “Start my Life” Now that Im out I realized all I did was end it.”

With the 10 Year Anniversary of Phantom Fury and the Marine Corps 239th Birthday to celebrate this 10 November 2014. I found myself watching moto video’s on youtube about 1st and 2nd Recon. I was left thinking about how Ill never be that cool again. The only thing cool about my current job is the paycheck. It was sobering to watch that shit and in all truth it just made me hungry. I wanted to be locked in I wanted to fight but not for my country or even my brothers in arms. I just wanted to fight the enemy and go to Valhalla. I feel like I pushed fast forward on life and now Im stuck in slow motion praying Im given the opportunity to hit rewind. As much as I didn’t want to admit it to myself at the time the main reason I took my current job was so I could go to Afghanistan. I had thought that what I wanted was a safe job where I could make money and prepare for a transition back to a family man. Ive come to realize being armed in Afghanistan with no bad buys to engage stirs a hunger inside me and Im looking to eat.

Was I born this way #LadyGaGa or was this created? I always remember wanting to be in the military but Ive tasted a life without violence in San Francisco and it was good. If I had never of joined the Marine Corps would I have this hunger or would it have consumed me back in America for not having served. If I truly was born this way it gives me hope to know that different types of people #Jung make up a functional healthy society. If that is the case and we are predestined to fill these roles wether it be hippy artists or Marine respecting the different types of people will allow a society to function in a healthy way. So one shouldn’t hate a cop for his/her love of law and strict adherence/enforcement of the rules. Just like I cant help thinking some rules are meant to be broken. As long as all of us are allowed to have the freedom to exist and be ourselves gives balance to the whole. Otherwise look at nations where that balance is to one-sided they are dysfunctional and oppressive. Much like how families are dysfunctional if the members are locked into very specific roles. #Hero #Rebel #Ghost

All I know is that thank god for the terrorist otherwise what would we do with the monsters we send to go kill them.

Happy Birthday Marines and Semper Fidelis